Happy Mother's Day

Never liked Mother's Day.

I realised that I always always hide away from this date. Especially when that chinese nursery song singing how great a mom is just sends me goosebumps and tears just wants to be uncontrollable.

Never did I announce this out to anyone, but now I am.

Anyways... 

Happy Mother's Day to my dearest dearest grandma. I love you so much. :]

I want to danceeeeeeee. Serious.

How I wish I could...

 A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

Hindering steps

I cannot imagine that I am already in year 2 since school had begun a new academic year last week. The 'you-are-year-two-already' still haven't actually hit me, yet.

Did I say I am so gonna work hard for this sem onwards?

Haha looks like I haven't even start working hard a tinny-winny  bit. But I really got a whole lot of work to do. Not really much of homework kind of work. :P

Random* You don't have to care about this 

To this special one: You can. You will. And, Everything will turn out just like how you wanted. :)*

School has been pretty awesome and dance will soon be a everyday routine. Cept' Sunday cos' it will always be a rest day. I hope. :)

Wells, these two weeks have also been a decision-making week. Lots of decisions to make. Definitely, the challenges are almost here.

Very seldom people can get to do what they want and get both good things on their hands, thus, there is these words called- Advantages and Disadvantages. 

Whenever you are called to make decisions, meaning, you only can have ONE choice. Usually, only given the ONE chance to make that ONE choice. Life's not unfair. Definitely not biased too. That is when we learn how to give up something and look at things from a different aspect. Only then, we will learn and grow at the same time, to think differently.

Of course there will be a lot unbearable feelings. But, who don't know?

Giving up something in life doesn't mean failure. 

At the end of the day, the decision maker will still be ourselves. Who is accountable for our own actions. Who has no one to blame if we were to make the wrong decisions. If you believe and be positive about living, I believe that life will be happier and simpler. What we yearned for will be not so much of a 'I-must-get-it-or-else-I-will-go-kill-myself' life.

When you have more expectations, more thoughts on how you gonna live your future, you will realised that when you don't achieve them and when things hinder you from moving a step more towards your so called 'future', you will actually fall and take a longer time to heal.

Why not try living in the present?

I remember someone used to tell me, 'Reminisce the past, Cherish the present, Look to the future', as an encouragement. 

Cherish in this context: To think about the present and to living in it.

Perhaps, thats when we will actually slow down our pace and noticed that the world would be so beautiful than we had thought?

:)

My very best wishes to dearest Ryan, Andrea and Baby Travis!! :)

Yay! Really cannot wait to meet this little new Earthling! 

:D

Cherish the times that we can be, together.

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

MAY the WRITER!

Hello everyone!
My blogis really dead, but Im really lazy o blog about anything no want to recall anthing.
Those who I went out with spent time with, I didn't post it up does not mean that I don't treasure you.
I really do. (:
Its just that I am slow at finding my lost soul here.

I need some more time to be back to my usual self.

So here I present MAYMAY to help me blog toay's post! :D

Enjoy!!

"Nah, May! Here you go! " *passes Louis laptop to May*

Hello world, this is May may here. Fenyi's NRA dance friend. tehehee! she is so lazy now, asking me to blog on er behalf. so now, Fenyi is wearing a Bright BLUE shirt and black pants stretching next to me. teehee =D she has pretty purple hair extentsions in her hair. now she is saying: "OIIII, DONT WRITE ABOUT ME ARH!!" hehe. wait wait wait, i like her pink samsung phone, fenyi, give to me okay? hehe (: she will be performing at O school's recital in december! do support there yep? (:
just to let you know, there is an NRA dance production in December called DANZATION!!! here are the details:
Date: 19 and 20 December 08'
Time: 7-9.30pm
Venue: Ngee Ann Poly (convetion centre)
Price: $15

Okay, end of my post! i will be back soon. teehee! I LURVEE ELMOOO and GIRAFFES and FENYI!!
May may signing off with tons of love (:

in today's post

I feel so blessed and loved.
With my family around, my dear group of friends, dancing with people of the same passion, serving God, etc.!
I thank God for granting me with lots of love.

(:
Many a time people do not realize how important it is to treasure people around them and always tend to neglect them. I too.
I think I should learn right from the beginning on how to treasure the people around me, people whom I loved and loves me.
I should learn about being patient, striving and discipline once again.
I should not be out of focus, I should not be lazy and I should not let my emotions take over my logic thinking.
Because, I think I am such an selfish ass.


I want to keep in touch with my dears.
Especially my cousins, and my friends from secondary school, my god-family.
They are the people whom I had been close with, spend my childhood with, took care of me and been through many ups and downs with me.
They are the people I should thank and worth to be mentioned.
I love you all, no matter how the past was.
I want to be nicer to the people around me, spend more time with my family and have a better control of my emotions. Sometimes, on certain things, you just cannot help it.

I want to spend more time with God too. :)

I feel very blessed with all that happened.
Although my life had not been smooth sailing right from the time the moment I was born, I still feel very happy that I made it to this world.
Although I was always spiteful to my father about why he brought me to this world but didn’t take good care of me etc, I still love this place.

I want to say to people who find this world dirty and awful…
This is a place where you spot many different personalities.
This is a place where you grow to be who you are.
If you love yourself, you have to love this place, because of this place that influenced you to be who you are.
If you don’t, search for the inner self who is actually who you are and not someone you want to become.
Then, you will live happily on this earth and be who you are.
You are special, to someone out there in this world.
To your God, your family, your love ones.
You are specially created for a purpose, that’s what I have always believed in.
Don’t think that there are many restrictions in this world that wants you to obey like a dog.
NO.
It doesn’t. It just wants you to follow the rules in order to live as human beings in all.
We are all equal in His eyes. His beloved children.
We are all here for a reason.
Lets all learn to love ourselves. (:

Everyone will at least have one regret in life, that’s part and parcel.
Everyone has their past that doesn’t want people whom they are close with to know, afraid that they will laugh at them and leave them.
When we are comfortable to share and open up our hearts to our past, that is when we gain more peace in life.
Those who know the One and Only GOD, should find peace in Him.
You seek and He will grant. Pray whole-heartedly.
Trust in Him, Find comfort in His words and embrace Him.
I love you lord, for all that You had given to me.

(:
I think all of us need to look up and way beyond our expectations and goals.
Think far and move forward each time.
Always be open, humble and learn as much as you can, with respect and improve as much.

YAY!
I WANT TO WORK HARD AND PERSEVERE ALL THE WAY.
Because I love to dance.

I want to share my love and my experience that made me grow with ya’all.

I hope that you will always be my baby.

Ahh, DANCE DANCE BABY!
:P
all the way ah all the way!

With all the encouragements from you all darlings and baby, I will persevere all the way, look forward all the way,
strive all the way, don’t give up all the way, try my best all the way!

And I hope to say I can see light at the end of the tunnel soon…

Hopefully you all can see that Sabrina Tan Fen Yi had grown up.
From all that I had went through, I want to still be able to keep growing up with experience.

Lets all learn to love and be sensitive to the people around us, the planet earth that we are living on, make love not wars, support peace and spread love throughout.
Make a better place for us to live in and we will be happier too!

(:
Take care people.



i hope God will continue to bless me and help me whenever i need Him.

He is love.



A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

(p.s. from ignite's older generation. -- c & p from my older blog (:)

old days back.

Just a simple day reminiscing the days back in secondary school days...
And because I will not be able to make it back for teachers day this year. :(

I missed the teachers at XMS, who had the most impact on me, whom are the special ones who mould me into who I am.
I hoped that whatever I am now, can bring proud and not shame to those who taught me once.

Perhaps, at this new place, I will grow into a different person.
But, I will make sure that I will not forget what I had learnt back then.

I missed the canteen aunties and uncles who were always so friendly and smiley.

I missed the people whom had been classmates with me, all the good and the bad memories we shared in each of our memories.
Especially, the times we created mischiefs, struggled for Os, and everything.

I missed MediaClub, my dearest juniors of photography. They are really a group that made my day full of laughter and madness. I missed the days where we used to be known as a slack cca.
But well, without us, who will do the job of capturing the memorable happenings of the school?
:)


All you need in this life is ignorance and confidence, and then your success is sure. -Mark Twain


A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

Eliminate those negatives...

Everyone has their own life story.

Some times we should just not probe in too much into people's personal life.

A life that the individual does not wish to let known to the public.

It really had to depend on individual's willingness to share.

Just a note to take, if people does not want you to know, stop asking.

On a lighter note, IM SUPPOSED TO GROW SMARTER BY YESTERDAY, REMEMBER?!

-I did not.

:P

Had a long and nice chat with fang ying on the way home yesterday.

It made me realised how much a human being could resort to such a state when they are driven to such desperation.

Perhaps it is just take a little courage to bring out the inner self within.

Everyone knew, who dare to voice?

Thanks for the great understanding and acknowledgement girl. I feel really comfortable after telling you about the 'trying-to-explain-myself' incident. You know what i mean. (:

On regards to another matter, I got a lot to say. But how do I go about it.

So many things to say, so hard to explain.

We really had to be responsible for our own actions.

I had said it many times to you and whether to accept or not it lies in the decision you make, not me.

People always tend to say 'I really regretted about what i did', but it is only after the incident.

AFTER your friends telling you their comments.

It really had to depend on you, you know?

Friends spare a thought for you, friends stay with you whether in good times or bad.

Friends love you for who you are and NOT who you are trying to become.

Things will change after a period of time...

When your friends thought that you no longer care about how they felt.

Friends really care. But, did you care?

You began to feel that the whole world's like isolating you...

You began to think that whatever you did does not seem to get any acknowledgements, no one seemed to notice.

You began to feel unloved, feel desolated.

You later on blame your parents, your God, your friends.

For you, is the victim for all the bad things that happened in your life, everyone owed you.

It is the thought on your side of view.

Not the rest of the world.

You came up with all sorts of excuses, all the way till the time when you was just a child.

How unfairly treated you were, how bad you situation was and came up with excuses for the every little misfortunes.

In the later part, you began to find 'love' in sorts of 'interests' came up with your own 'analogy'. You became even more resentful, but you buried it all in the deepest corner of your heart.

You appeared to be really happy and you put up a brave front.

Because, you thought no one will know how you feel.

You turned away from the eyes of despire and you thought it was your own life, no one can decide for you what to do, no one should even tell you what to do.

You never thought that those words coming out from your family, friends are God's reminders to you. 

You never thought that those words coming out, are out of concern and care.

You often asked, 'God, where are you when i needed you?'.

You do not know that God is among the people around you. 

I asked, Have you forgotten His words? Have you forgotten about Him?

You said people change.

I asked again, For the better or for the worst?

What about the change in you?

Good or bad? Right or wrong?

You always said say that you know what to do.

Do you?

A sense of complacency, you never thought?

Why is there a point to remain dreadful for what had already happened?

You always thought other people is living a better life than you are.

How do you know?

Just because people around you appear to be happy?

People is content and happy with what they have and what they experienced.

Even their life's full of many downs, they did not expressed.

How do you know they are better than you?

You often said, do not assume. 

I said, Assumptions are nothing but trouble.

So?

What can we do if we assumed? What we should do if people assumed?

Isn't it just another communication problem?

Is is that hard to correct it?

What is so wrong about it?

If something is assumed, why not clarify?

Because, you thought another trouble will arise if you do that.

Isn't what you thought, another assumption?

Life is like this.

You just have to live with it.

God gave us choices.

It is not how other people think of you, it is HOW GOOD YOU WANT TO BE.

It is a phrase that Many misinterpreted its meaning.

It does not mean do not care about how people think and feel, and be as good as you want to be, just be who you want to become.

-This is so wrong.

Not caring about what people think', the referent of 'people' here, is referring to people who looked down on you and is not referring to people who wants you good.

How good you want to be', appropriate, quality, characteristic of a better person.

In any case, the correct phrase should be, IT'S NOT HOW GOOD YOU ARE, IT'S HOW GOOD YOU WANT TO BE. (Paul,2003,p.12-14)

It is never wrong to make mistakes.

It is never right to not make mistakes.

No matter what, my sincere apologies to you dear.

I am really sorry for not telling you how i felt because i sort of gave up.

I know i should not, at least as a friend i should give you comments.

But, you know i gave the same comments so many times until i almost gave myself up too.

I always thought how a 'good' friend i had became.

How do I go about helping you with your problems?

I am really sorry being purposefully ignorant.

But, I really do not know how to face you.

I thought it was better if I not say anything, because I do not want you to feel that I am trying to bring you down.

Because i thought, if you are happy with where you are now, I should not be a spoiler.

It will only worsen our relationship that had already been sitting on the edge.

We learn from our mistakes, we embrace critics with both arms and we bear the consequences from our actions.

Hope you will understand.

Be true to yourself no matter what.

Don't think too much of the stuffs that you cannot retrieve anymore! Look to the future, and you will see a bigger picture. 

I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart dear.

Friend-ship never sinks.

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.