Just when you thought its random.

Stop influencing, and begin to inspire!

I think when people reach a certain age, they will start to talk about life issues and realize the important things, curious about the meaning of life, and even question their dreams. This is the time when you begin to ask yourself, what matters to you most.

Happiness, materials, joy, fun, or staying true/real?

When you walk past a old lady selling packets of tissues on the streets, what is your first reaction? What is the reaction that you will give, especially you see her walking towards your direction? Will you answer her request and buy it out of sympathy? Or because you needed a packet? Or your friends are buying and you have to do the same?

When it is dinner time, what kind of dining places would come to your mind? Should it be normal food court/hawker centre? Or would it be a rather posh or costly restaurant?

What kind of hobbies do you enjoy? Clubbing or jogging?

Perhaps all of the stuff that I asks becomes irrelevant or pure randomness.

So much freedom for us.

Yet...

Should re-instill the stop-abusing-the-freedom that we now have, back.

And, everything becomes so subjective, and so about ourselves and only ourselves.

What happens on the outside, do not match with the inner side.

So, do you know what is happening to the world now?

Whatever that you do, come from your heart.

What you get in return? You inspires.

More to come.

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If you want to ask... why oh why.

It is so hard to smile sincerely now. But, I do learn from this is that; God really works mysteriously and when we think we know, we actually have no idea. Cos' the results can be that surprisingly opposite from what we have thought. I will be fine in Him.

I realised that everything that I just come to know, He will more or less let me experience it either right away, moments later, or after some days. In conclusion, it just happens. You got nowhere to hide cos' you just can't seem to avoid it. Which you never will.

If that is His Will, nobody can ever stop Him from delivering.

Now I have to seek and wait for the Man Upstairs to teach me how to handle my emotions and also to understand His purpose and the sufferings we go through.

There are always good times and they are really good. But, when bad times arrive, you wouldn't have time to even prepare for it.

What we'll gain from suffering?

We'll gain the gifts; Patience and Endurance

One Up wants us to know that we can get back on our feet is not because of ourselves, but because of Him. And so, He is our past, our present and also our future. He is the only one in control.

What proves it?

When we thought we are in control of a situation, the situation just goes the opposite way.

And yes, that's His Will that you can't go against.

That's an example.

He want us to know that whatever we do is not by the power of ourselves, but by the power of the Almighty One Upstairs.

:)

Why do He wants us to experience hardship and suffer?

It is not because of the reason that He don't love us. It is just that He loves us too much that He wants us to know that He is always there to comfort us. He wants to walk with us through the journey, be our bestest friend and telling us that we're not alone.

In Him, we will pull it through.

When we walk the suffering/hardship right through with Him, we will be His light to the rest of the world.

We have to be truthful about our emotions. He gave us the freedom of expressing ourselves. He want us to be who we are and trust in His character.

He has never forsaken us and most importantly, if we pray sincerely and wait for Him to grant it, He will answer and deliver.

Everything that happens, it is for a reason. One Up allows it to happen. It will always be for good, be it edifying others/ourselves. Even it is just making us learn from falling. :)

God is good all the time.

One day if you tell me God didn't exist, I still want to say; at least it make me a better person, spiritually, mentally and physically.

In this temporary body of mine, I will fulfill my purpose on Earth, as to Glorify the Lord and trust in Him. Give my best for Him.

There is no such things as forever standing straight and tall. There will be times when we fall. After all, we are just human beings. But, do remember that He will always be there to pick you up. Be open to Him. Be open about your emotions. Be open about the opportunities, about the gifts that you received. Be thankful and edify others. Open your eyes and look at the sky!

Most importantly, remain humble and never stop learning. That's my lesson learnt.

I know life will not be easy from now onwards. Times will be tougher...

But, I really hope that this fire in me will not be put out. Shall remain hopeful.

Most importantly, like always, put myself in One Up's hands. Definitely got a way out/for a good purpose. It is only a matter of time. There is so much more to go through, so much more to learn and experience. So much more to gain knowledge of. So much more waiting for me right in front of me.

I want to be able to stand up strong to face it with His strength. Fulfill my purpose on Earth and glorify Him in all that I do. Empower me and fill me with courage.

Learn to love.

All Stars, I still love you guys as much. Ya'll know we're always here.

Especially Kyxz, Laurence, Ken, Maya and Taks.

To me, you guys have already won the battle. Look at everyone uniting and coming together as one. Very soon... We'll be One Nation Eternally.

Life's gonna be tough, but He will be there and we'll all be there.

It's His-Story!

We're halfway there. Have to keep believing.

Congratulates Joyce and the Boys (Singapore represent) for coming in 3rd in the World's Hip Hop Championship! :)

Assignments and quizzes shall be conquered in 2 weeks time.

Leaving for WuHan in 26 days.

My shield, my guide, my light, my hope, my comfort, my shelter, my Father.

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Smiley smiley oh smiley face

I finally make use of my smiley book. Somewhere which I don't have to care about my language, my handwriting and how people feel.

Where I can doodle even I think my drawing like fail. :P

Some times, I just don't feel right.

Maybe that helps. God gave me as a present. Write how I feel, what I want to say into smiley.

In case you're wondering, I am good. Really good.

Just that, I got too many things on my mind. :)

Don't bother me with additional school work/stuff, but come bother me if you want to hang out!

Cos' 'this is the time of the year', Dan. hahahaha I am really tired of all the school assignments especially that it all eats into first week of hols.

Anyways, by right I should start my hols straight after National Day.

But by left, all because of filming (Damn Stress), 3D (zzz), drama (gozz how I act sial), script (die don't fail me again please :( ), pro plan portfolio (I want to score this leh!) tests... I got to chiong them all in 2 weeks.

HOW HOW HOW.

freaking shit. Don't like this ending semester chiong assignments shit.

For those who thinks that its easy/we procrastinated, sorry you are wrong. Very very wrong.

:(

Got to think of a way out.

Can't dance much, must save for health abit.

Go watch movie! Public Enemy~~ (Watched yesterday! Quite cool leh, got my J.D)

I think I should settle down... One assignment at a time. But, really can't do one at a time. Damn.

Save me Lord. :(

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The One Up

God is good all the time.

The One Up, I love you very very very much! :]

keep me up with faith, trust, love and knowledge.

Thank you Kenjhons (a.k.a King Kong) :P, for all the guidance and love.

The One Up.

:]

Thank you Gen. Thanks for sharing and listening. Love you. :)

Thank you Ryan. For all the opportunities and love & care. Love you. :)

Thank you Base. Arigato(u)! For all your love and help. Love you guys! (Shiori-san, Saori-san,

Zaki-san, Mii-san, Gachi-san) *suki-suki*

Thank you Elke and Weiqi! I love you all. :)

Thank you my dearest FSV classmates. Love you all. Thanks for all the love and help. :)

Thank you Calista. For all the late night chats and OSAKAAAAAA! *love-love* :]

Thank you zL. Thanks for all the love and care. Love you. :)

Thank you PHILIPPINE ALL STARS!!! Very very thankful to have met you all. Sheena, Chello, King Kong, Tas (a.k.a Boon), Lawrence, Kyxz, Maya :D Love you all.

Thank you to dearest people and definitely The One Up.

I know you guys are here.

Quote Lawrence's back tattoo: 'God's got my back'.

When some of you chose to walk out of my life, I decide to remain the door to my life open. So that when you are at the door, you can walk straight in. :)

Welcome back people, Sabrina is backed.

And you would love to know that is One Up who is that powerful and strong. The only One who's got the ability to bring me back on my feet and make me alive all over again.

There's too much that I thought that I went through and thought I couldn't handle.

I went right through it and faces a new challenge.

As a reminder to myself, if He give it to you, it would be something that you can go through.

(He knows what you can or cannot handle. If you can't he won't give it to you at all.)

This is His love for you.

Discover.Seek.Learn.Trust.Faith.Truth. One Up.

Really. Everything that happened has got a reason. What is the reason? I don't know. But, Trust in The One Up; He's got everything settled for you.

One reason that I know about everything that happens to you, is Him.

He is the reason.

He allows it to happen so that you will learn and be better.

And I miss some of my dearests already.

Weiqi TAKE GOOD CARE!! :)

ShiJia, you know I love you one. :)

ALL STARS!! :((

TBG 2009. A event that is ever eventful.

A date to remember, 28th June 2009.

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Something else

Bad weather. Some times I really do prefer rainy days, cos' everything seemed so calm and quiet except for the sound of the rain. 

Recovering from fever, throat inflammations and some ulcers here and there. Terrible terrible feelings. 

Celebrated my birthday by taking jazz class and a failed surprise from dear people. I still appreciate it. :)

Ended my day with beloved mianbao with 'Marley and Me', and into the night chats at some corners of the mrt station. You know some times it is not easy to love a person for who they are. Perhaps we should learn to love someone for whom they are and expect less. Moreover, 'we shouldn't hate/dislike someone for them, are trying to be who they are.' Hmm... 

Thank you Mianbao and Melise for the great great super dope SPX!!! Serious, it is damn dope until I seriously don't bare to wear out but I did. :P

I also want to thank all the people who wished me. Thank you all for all the well wishes! Regardless of where and when; facebook, tagboards, sms, face to face, calls! Thank you all. Though there are some mishaps and last minute changes that happened, I still enjoyed myself. Thank you qiqi especially for the 'in-the-cab-birthday cake-blowing-candle' and that dope shirt! Thank you yingying especially for the 'i-go-ask-for refill-of-water-and-the-cake-is-here'! And the special gift. :P Thank you both for hearing what I have said that happened on sat, and got me the little sweet cakes the next day. I am really really thankful. :) I could not say that this year's quite screwed cos' mianbao was there right beside me, spending the day with me. :) I cannot say that this year's rubbish cos' there are people who are willing to take time off to spend with me, meet me up and even wished me when the clock struck 12. Thank you all. (:

I just wana say, I was not even expecting anything. I just felt a little bit offended when people say things, assuming that they know me very well. You think you know, but seriously you have no idea. Some times you just don't know how disappointing you might be when you do that to some one. I took it seriously, especially when I thought we aren't just acquaintances. 

I apologize if I looked unexcited about this day and if I don't seem to enjoy at all. Cos of too much that happened right from the day that I was born. Cos' I just wished that I was not born at all. Yup. Too much happened from the beginning till the present. How much I still have to go through till the end. But, I really tried...

Perhaps one day I will be able to truly find myself on the very same day every year. It is not like I am feeling emo or whatsoever. Just that there is too much on my mind that it is filling out. 

After a few days from that particular day, I will be okay. :)

Anyways, I finally got my haircut! Looks neater but a bit too dumb. What happened was, I told her that I wanted to cut short but she was reluctant to cut short. I was asked to close my eyes and then not to open until she asked me to. So, being afraid that she will accidentally poke my eyes or whatsoever, half of my fringe's length gone!!! :(

I was telling her not too short....... But I think this is really short. :(

Okay, be nice and please don't laugh at me when you see me okay. Thank you! :)

Side note: My room's revamp is almost done! All hail to a new environment! Makes me feel fresh. :) I will try post up some photos another day when my room's tidier and packed. :)

:)

I want to watch SIFF short films... I want to watch Gran Torino... I want to watch Watchmen still... I want to watch Hotel for Dogs... I want to watch Slumdog Millionaire again again... I want to watch taken and like it surprisingly... I want to watch Burn After Reading again... 

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HAPPY 2009!

HAPPY AND BLESSED 2009 EVERYONE! :)

Hope everybody had great experiences and memories throughout 2008 and had fun on the last day of the year too! Leave what had past behind with 2008 and move on with 2009. 

All the very best to everyone's future and remember to keep doing what you really love! Remember to reminisce the past, cherish the present, look to the future! Keep dreaming :D

Yesterday was a total fun with the girlies for k-session over at bugis and then steamboat for dinner! The food there was aswesome la! :DD

Was there before with the recital people, thanks to xiao pei for introducing such a great place!

It is not very big, but it is still homey enough for the 8 of us. :)

After steamboat we went to Padang for countdown to 2009! (: Entertained ourselves with the game 'Guru, bears and villagers'. I shout until I lose my voice. haha

Watched fireworks and then leave for movie- Ip Man, at Cathay. Ip Man is damn dope! He can fight with just his fists. It is a very inspiring movie! After which, we stayed at Dhoby Ghaut and talked till morning breaks in. :D

Left for the first train and then slept till this afternoon. 

Damn shiok spending time with your loved ones during the last day of the year and reminiscing the old days and getting excited all over together. :)

Hope everything will be better for 2009!

Some photos to share with you guys!

:D

At House Of Steamboat

So many pair of hands!

With the irresistible 'Man-tou'!

:)

As though we can wish upon them! :P

My favourite shot :D

Eeee! :P

Grand Cathay!

The girls :D

Clover and Joyce :D

Clover :D

:D A really good start off for 2009.

I hope this lasts throughout the year, but I don't think that will be the case- to be realistic.

Back for new year resolutions when CNY comes! :)

Take care and enjoy the time people! 

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

O SCHOOL RECITAL 2008!

My first ever performance was dedicated to O School Recital 2008. (:

I am glad that I did, somehow.

Perhaps, that was the place that I had strong feelings about, a place where I first started dancing.

O School's instructors are all dear to me. Especially my most respected who guided me just like a passionate instructor.

YAY! Remember that day when I went for the auditions and came home blogging about how I thought I screw it up? haha

How time flies yea! It is already like 20 days after Recital already. I know I am S.L.O.W./ L.A.G. But, I really need to recover from post-syndromes before I can really settle down and think about it all. :S

I really miss all my dear recital kakis. 

Imagine the time we spent every week, train our butts off to get our timing right, to get on the right beat and all.

We got all stressed up when Ryan commented, reminders from An and Hua after each vettings. We worked hard for this recital. A performance that all of us will treasure.

I really miss you all! 

Here's a dedication (I tried to be less mushy okay :P)

Weiqi! I miss all the meet ups and catch ups in the train with you! :( All the time giving me her support and lending me her pair of listening ears. She is someone who understands me a lot, really. A really great friend. 

I miss Jannie! For all the smileys and all the love. Luckily there's Danzation. Hurhur. Or else I can just die missing you even though you keep bullying me. :P My dear jannie jane who holds my sealed secret. (: Study hard and dance harder girl! Thank you for your encouragements when we first met during the second training. I still keeps it to my heart. (:

Elkeeee! I am her new found best friend. I not bhb okay. :( She don't like me to talk to her, take photos with her. I am very sad. But, Elke still loves me! I know :D Thanks so much dear, for always being sensitive and happy. You know I will die not speaking at all! :P Hope you will enjoy yourself, gain as much experience over at Miami! All the best to the future. I will miss you. :)

Jocelyn, Huimin! Thanks so much for always being irritated by me! :P But, Jocelyn! You know the reason for my activeness! :D Always understanding and rational b-girl, straightforward and real. (: Faster get married! Huimin, the youngest among the group! But, I youngest at heart! :P Really can eat leh seriously! :P Jiayou with school and get to a school and course that you desire k! (: I want to see Jocelyn do flare leh! :S

Geraldine, Xiao Pei! Nice people who cute characters. Love you all cos' of the realness that we all treated one another. I have never felt so comfortable with people that I have jus met! Recital was the big break through! :) Thanks to you girls, I felt even more comfortable somehow. I am really glad to have met you all. Especially Xiao Pei, cos I've got a better understanding of your job! haha super cool with the number of lights down the Orchard Rd during Christmas season! :)

Shantelle! Thank you so much for bring home our shirts to do the spraying! That is why we got great effect on stage! :D Thank you so much for all the things that you have done. It had been great dancing together, a really great and memorable experience. We all knows it right! (:

Schizo, Weeeter, Daniel! ahhh! Thank you all so much for being such entertainment during

recital period! Schizo for being the 'ba luo bo', Weeter for sleeping all the time and Daniel for being so noisy and ah beng-ish. Really treasured the times that was filled with laughter during rehearsals, dinner time, train rides home, every time, any time and any where With you all around, the atmosphere always that cheerful and light! Thanks for all the little reminders and encouragements SCHIZO, it always help :) You're a wonderful partner, friend, and DA DE!! Thanks for being willing to help in my school's production and all. Really can't thank you enough. :( WEEEETER! Thanks for always not saving me from Daniel ah! NICE FRIEND. haha You have always been a good DA ZHI DE, really. But, don't keep sleeping la! :S DANIEL don't always make me paiseh la! I really treat and treasure you all as my very very precious memory leh. Anyways, I think the rest of our group people quite sadist. See me kena disturbed by Daniel until so malu already still so happy. Laugh until so damn loud where ever we all. All no heart one. :(

But, I still love you all la! you all happy then okay already. (:

Pangyang, Junwei! :D Thanks for always being such cheerful people! Really lightened and brightened our night during training and rehearsals! I had fun laughing and losing my voice

cos' I always laughed to loud. Especially Junwei, I will never forget what you wanted to wear for locking FTL haha thanks a lot guys! 

:)

Ian, Brendan! Ian ah Ian! Seriously, you got improve a lot :) Must jiayou and stay happy with with what you love to do okay! Don't every time say actually leh! Brendan imitate you until I laugh till cannot tahan alreadyyyy :S HAHA! Thanks for all the encouragements, it all really help. (: Anyways, you also must study hard k!

BRENDAN! Someone who always sings our recital song for us when we are cleaning our steps from top to the end! Thanks so much! :D hahahaha-REEEEMIXX! :P Thank you so much for always laughing at my jokes and bringing smiles to our faces! You also another one who must eat more and act cute less! :P Jiayou jiayou! Keep doing what you love! Will always be there supporting. :)

Samuel, Kenny, Niger! I really hope that there were more time so that I could get to know you better Samuel. (: It was great dancing with you as a team, I hope that day we did feel one another! Jiayou! :) You can emerge into reggae perhaps!! :D Kenny ah Kenny! I know you earlier, so! Im glad that we are in the same recital group! :P Thanks so much for laughing to my joke too! Not many people gets it. :( Continue to pursue your goals! All the best for your studies too! :) Niger! Happy working with you. It was great dancing all together as a team. The feeling is shiok one loh! :P Jiayou! All the best to everything that you do! (:

ANAN and AH HUA!

THANK YOU AH AN AND AH HUA! I/WE LOVE YOU!! Thank you both so much for all the time, effort and hard work. It was great being under both of you. The donuts, happy birthday songs for late comers, match making session was just memorable. Hope to work with you all again! :) Thank yous so much for helping us and 'cleaning' us up all the way till performance day. Words just cannot express the amount of gratitude and love we all have for both of you. Keep smiling and keep inspiring! :D

A very special and big thanks to dears like Joyce and zL for helping me with my make-up and hair! Without them, you won't see me pretty pretty le! haha :P 

& XIUHUI for her baggy jeans! :D Thank you so much!! 

Very big thanks to Ryan and Carol for all the encouragements and guidance! I felt it :D I miss Carol already. :(

&& ah chao aka Tyde for his encouragements and a little bit of the popping choreo! :P haha

&&& to Dears like MianBao, Karen, Ellia, Trecia, ShiJia, Timothy, Calista, Loius, Limin, Audrey, Cherron, Vanessa, Zhiyang, Tingxuan and Yunting, and more and more for supporting. Really thank you all. It all mattered to me in my heart. :)

I really really cannot thank you all enough. The months of hard work gone through as a TEAM cannot be broken down into words. The amount of sweat and laughter we all had 

together cannot amount to anything but heartfelt thanks and etched deep down into my heart. Seriously, I am not good with words. But, I still hope you guys feel me, my sincerity of wanting to thank every single one of you, who went through a phase of life with me. For I know, during the days, I was not alone. I just know that, miss, will be the word when I look at our group photos during recital period.

No matter what, we must TRY to keep in contact with one another k! 

I love every single one of you.  :)

Thank you so much for making it so memorable to me.

Hope those who came, enjoyed that evening.

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

Old but still, its meaningfulness remained.

:)

Sand and Stone

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE
IN THE FACE.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING,
WROTE IN THE SAND:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED
TO TAKE A BATH

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE '.

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'

THE FRIEND REPLIED
'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.
BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT.'

LEARN TO WRITE
YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO
CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.

THEY SAY IT TAKES A
MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL
PERSON, AN HOUR TO
APPRECIATE THEM, A DAY
TO LOVE THEM, BUT THEN
AN ENTIRE LIFE
TO FORGET THEM.



I love you all, my friends.
































(:

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.