Just when you thought its random.

Stop influencing, and begin to inspire!

I think when people reach a certain age, they will start to talk about life issues and realize the important things, curious about the meaning of life, and even question their dreams. This is the time when you begin to ask yourself, what matters to you most.

Happiness, materials, joy, fun, or staying true/real?

When you walk past a old lady selling packets of tissues on the streets, what is your first reaction? What is the reaction that you will give, especially you see her walking towards your direction? Will you answer her request and buy it out of sympathy? Or because you needed a packet? Or your friends are buying and you have to do the same?

When it is dinner time, what kind of dining places would come to your mind? Should it be normal food court/hawker centre? Or would it be a rather posh or costly restaurant?

What kind of hobbies do you enjoy? Clubbing or jogging?

Perhaps all of the stuff that I asks becomes irrelevant or pure randomness.

So much freedom for us.

Yet...

Should re-instill the stop-abusing-the-freedom that we now have, back.

And, everything becomes so subjective, and so about ourselves and only ourselves.

What happens on the outside, do not match with the inner side.

So, do you know what is happening to the world now?

Whatever that you do, come from your heart.

What you get in return? You inspires.

More to come.

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

Just as what I thought...

'Everything that happen has it's own cause.
Every choice that is made has it's reason behind it.
And for every obstacle you face, its either you learn to accept or learn to lose.
And for that, i will learn to accept because it is worth everything for.
You don't have to change a bit, just be yourself =]'
-Sean.T (1991-)

Lingering

It has been such a long time from my previous post. That was in January and here we are, rainy-sunny- weird weather MARCH. 

Nope. Not because I procrastinated about blogging, posting anything relevant to my life and definitely not because I was lazy. Partially was because I was really too caught up with school projects, busy get-away dancing and other commitments.

Hell, last month wasn't smooth sailing as I thought. Anyways, the reason for not recording anything was because, I felt seriously LOST. Lost in directions, lost in my emotions, lost in crap-up responsibilities, etc.

You know, some times you just don't know anything. But, all you have to do is to tell yourself that you know. But, that is really really hard. 

Anyways, as time goes by, I learnt. I learnt to look at things in a different angle, different aspects. If someone were to ask me what object will I want to become if given a chance, I would definitely say a Camera.  (: That is what it will do. Look at things in different aspect and then when you see a bigger picture, all you know is that all answers to your questions will start to reveal themselves. 

hmm... 

That is all for the February blues! :)

From March onwards should be a new start and will be full of ups and downs as usual. Like what was said, No matter what happens, just smile and keep smiling. 

So, I shall update all that happened from the beginning of March. Sounds naggy and long, but should be interesting to me. :P 

The other day, I watched 'Slumdog Millionaire', which was given to me by Uncle Kenneth together with the other films. Haven't watch the rest, especially 'Taken'. It had been a long since I got time for myself. 

Okay back to Slumdog. All I wish to say is, TOTALLY DESERVING for all the awards at Oscars! Super nice soundtracks, great cinematography, absolutely a great film! Probably is the best film that I have watched so far. It is because of this film, I came to know what I want to do in this industry. It is like finally after 1 whole year in FMS. :)

 I am glad that I finally have something to drive me on other than keep dancing. :)

Two thumbs up for 'Slumdog Millionaire' for being so successful! 

Anyways, I think this holiday's quite well spent. As I got to do so much catch up with my friends, DONE my super big jigsaw puzzle (Uncle Kenneth say no life :( ), watch many films than I thought. :)

My xiang xiang was much of my happy get away when he was in town. Some kind of feeling that I have lost. :) 

Weeks before, I went out with Charm, Krystal and Uncle Kenneth for a movie and chilled at Mind's cafe. We watched 'The boy in striped pajamas', it was really !!! Me and Charm were letting all the f words out when we were towards the ending of the movie. :P It was super depressing, we all kept discussing about it, about how sad it was, and it was good. :) We went to the Mind's cafe, which I didn't knew such cafe existed until that day haha! I had so much fun and even got to know them better. Thinking about it, I think I was really that nonsense in my secondary school days! Okay I mean lower sec. But, who doesn't have a past! :P

Guess what, few days ago we met up again. 

Wanted to watch 'Watchmen'! My Mr. night owl. :P Who knows, Charm was not EVEN 18!!! :( That is like still so young?!

I was not the culprit that Charm couldn't get a tic in okay. I don't think I look like Charm in her Ezlink photo. HAHA! There goes my 'Watchmen'. I am not going to watch horror films that are coming up. Don't ask me. Except for 'Let the Right One in', I will consider. :)

Anyways, SIFF coming and I want to go for the short films. :)

Oh. And Yana Weiyi and Yingying doesn't want to watch 'Watchmen'. 

I got sweet dreams these few days. I don't know to feel happy or shouldn't be looking forward to anything. I thought back to the present, the fact that I don't even know what we are, where we are and how things are now, for us. You hardly show your real emotions, how you actually feel on how things now. Today, I woke up in tears cos' everything was way too real in that stupid dream. Can you tell me how to look forward to the future that I don't even know if you will be there. All the silly things that we have done together and some times forgetting that we should not because everything will seem so revealing to the fact. Stupid reality checks and stupid emotional personality. Protection, Assurance, Hope and the stupid 'in the future...'. Will you still look forward when you don't see me there anymore? 

Where have you been to? Why is it that I don't recognize you when I see you face to face. 

I am really on the verge on losing hope when you stupidly appear in my dream. What I am to do in this nowhere... And you happily leading your life like usual because you are just so used to this.

Some times it is really good to learn how to let things down and move on. But it is damn hard and I am still lingering...

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

Old but still, its meaningfulness remained.

:)

Sand and Stone

TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING
THROUGH THE DESERT.
DURING SOME POINT OF THE
JOURNEY, THEY HAD AN
ARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIEND
SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE
IN THE FACE.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED
WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT
SAYING ANYTHING,
WROTE IN THE SAND:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

THEY KEPT ON WALKING,
UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS,
WHERE THEY DECIDED
TO TAKE A BATH

THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN
SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE
MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING,
BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.

AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM
THE NEAR DROWNING,
HE WROTE ON A STONE:

'TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SAVED MY LIFE '.

THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED
AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND
ASKED HIM, 'AFTER I HURT YOU,
YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW,
YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?'

THE FRIEND REPLIED
'WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US
WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN
IN SAND, WHERE WINDS OF
FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY.
BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES
SOMETHING GOOD FOR US,
WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE
WHERE NO WIND
CAN EVER ERASE IT.'

LEARN TO WRITE
YOUR HURTS IN
THE SAND AND TO
CARVE YOUR
BENEFITS IN STONE.

THEY SAY IT TAKES A
MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL
PERSON, AN HOUR TO
APPRECIATE THEM, A DAY
TO LOVE THEM, BUT THEN
AN ENTIRE LIFE
TO FORGET THEM.



I love you all, my friends.
































(:

A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

super rand. ness

The third and last day at my aunt's house :)

I spent my children's day playing with my niece and nephew which is totally madness!
I watched hello kitty dvd, over and over again, until the point that I actually memorized their lines! :P

Children are really really adorable and loveable!
They have the undefineable purity. Most importantly, they don't hide their emotions.
A child laughs when he/she feels like it and its according to their emotions.

Sometimes I do wish I can be the way they are.
(:
Free from the word, worry.

You know, as you grow older... The simple five-letter word becomes harder to be understood.
People tend to worry about anything as they grow older, compared to those little ones.
Adults' 'worry' are not simple anymore.

So much for getting old.
I don't want.
I hate myself from hiding my emotions. Thats why I blogged. Even I blogged, I still hide some. What is the point? yea.. At least I get better. :]

That is why I tried my best to appear as happy as I can.
(Which doesn't mean that I do not have a worry right?)
:P

AND, what is childish?

(:




A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.

restore my faith and freshen me up, Lord.

Still, most respected knows me best.

Thanks a lot for all the small chats, the love and care you've shown, all the encouragements and little things and thoughts all these time.
Love ya' pa.

:)

Recently, many things have been going on.
All I can say is, I had learnt to open up my heart once again, to accept things as it is and I am beginning to look at things at different views.
Hopefully this can last.

Sometimes certain things can piss you off and tend to bring you/ those you loved down, but who can deny that this kinda stuff is inevitable?
What can you feel except for being unhappy and angry?
Being angry, frustrated, panicky can make you lose control of your thoughts and people tend to not think in a calm manner. (Which usually make things worse.)

What is most important at the end of the day will be, We should try our best to make decisions with no regrets and unhappiness.
Thus, it is so important to keep smiling and stay in positive thinking.
:)

Thanks so much for the enlightenment from those people whom are God sent to me. (:
I truly appreciates all the opinions and 'all-is-for-your-own-good' intentions.
loves.


I want to break those ceilings that obstructs me from my growth.
Being stagnant is a process, a really scary process.
I really tried squeezing out all that I have for this level.
It is time for the next level.
Thanks pa for the continuous reminders.


I am really not feeling happy from the bottom of my heart.



But still I have to say a really big heartfelt thanks to my dearest friends for bringing me happiness all the time, whenever you all sense something's wrong.
I love ya all really.
*you all know who you are. (:



I will and will and will be back to normal once I truly recover from the shock that struck me while I was happily enjoying life as it is.
Sometimes it is good for occasional shocks, cos' they are good reminders for the differences of being who you are and who you are trying to become.


I shall leave it to God and follow the way He wanted my life to be.
All planned right?

(:
He is the Truth, the Light, the Way to eternity and abundance of great love.
As always.



JiaYou SabrinaFRIEDMAN :D
JiaYou all that I loved and whom loved me!

Keep SMILING and stay Positive.
*Things will only get better and not worst. :)
*Learn to treasure all the people around you while you can.



Back to one- 6力 again.





A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PRINCE OF PEACE.